I've been so stressed out lately. It's that time in the semester that things build up and my plans go haywire and I think to myself, "My word! What have I been doing?"
Chaos seems to follow me. Homework builds up, friendships get bumpy, and somehow my relationship with God is like a balancing act on top of everything else.
I was so upset today that my plans to go to the park got ruined. So much so that I thought, "Fine, screw it, I'll make my own plans." I went to a grassy place on campus, knowing I'd be in full view of the people who ruined my plans, just to spite them. After I settled into the grass and took a moment just to listen (to the breeze, the music in the building behind me, the train on the edge of campus, the construction across the way, the planes flying above me, the people passing by), I realized how heavy my heart was about such a silly situation. After a while I wasn't even bothered by a couple of guys coming out to play Frisbee (it was actually pretty entertaining) or the man walking his dog so close to me that it came up and licked my face. The whole time, I was very aware of all the things going on around me, yet I was just barely able to focus on my book. At the very moment it became almost too much to bear and my stress began to build again, I heard a dove. I was overwhelmed with peace. I began to silently cry right there. And just as simply and discretely as the dove had come, it was gone. But that's all I needed. God just wanted to simply and discretely remind me that He was there. In all the chaos that goes on around me it's amazing that God's still able to reveal Himself and remind me that I'm not alone.
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